Trip to see Taylor!!!!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Chapter X-4: Day 4

December 3rd, 2010

Here is a big SHOCKER...I still feel terrible!
So no call/update from PH as of yet.
I tried to call him this morning to see if he had any news/course of action with regard to proceeding.
No answer...I did get a B*llsh*t text from him saying

"Sorry I'm stuck in a meeting at work and can't talk.  I may have an open afternoon/lunch and will check after my meeting".

I answered ...

"Just wanted an update/outcome with meeting you had yesterday.  Also wanted to know if you could ship my things as soon as possible.  Thanks"

I have a feeling this is going to open up a whole huge can of worms.
I think he will not be organized to ship my things.
Then there is the matter of the expense of shipping my things.
Which I think should be HIS expense because HE wants this.
And my expenses far far far outweigh his. 
I am the biggest loser in all of this.
I screwed my career, my options and my life to be with him.
Nevermind the things that really are the brandnew washer and dryer my parents bought for us.
Or the $300 worth of Target gift certificates to buy things like a vacuum and some dishes.
Nevermind that EVERYtime he came here to visit he left with more than $1000 in cash because of my guilt of not contributing.
Talked to Taylor yesterday and want to write a post all about that "guilt" and how it fits into life.
I have an awful awful feeling that this is going to become a huge mess.
I'm worried.
And I'm still reeling from the shock of it all.
I guess I should really provide some back story but its all just too much right now.

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