The next day
Date: Thu, Jan 13, 2011
4:50 PM Jacob: hi
16 minutes
5:07 PM me: Hi
16 minutes
5:23 PM Jacob: u there
5:25 PM me: Hi
Yup
Jacob: what r u up to
5:26 PM me: Just got home
5:27 PM Deciding what to makle for dinner
5:28 PM What r u up to? Working?
Here comes our boring self-improvement work chat...
Jacob: working then im going to a toastmasters meeting
5:29 PM me: First one?
Jacob: yep
me: Exciting!
Jacob: have u been
my boss's wife is coming w me
5:30 PM me: Ok I went to something similar in asia
I'm good at faking it so people don't know I'm nervous haha
Jacob: did u like it
25 minutes
5:56 PM me: Yup
6:00 PM Jacob: hey
me: Hi
Yes I liked it
Jacob: oh ok
6:01 PM me: I basically for public speaking find myself faking it (in the sense of being comfortable)
I'm outspoken with my friends but its hard to be in front of strangers
6:02 PM Guess what canada is getting target yippee!!!!!
can you tell how excited I am for Canada to get Target?
Jacob: cool
me: I love target
Haha
6:03 PM Jacob: i know
me: Haha
he does know me pretty well
6:05 PM Jacob: when does Taylor get there
He knows Taylor because at one time we all lived in the same city
me: Tomorrow! I'm so so excited
6:06 PM We are staying at a hotel sunday night and the bathroom has heated floors! Yippee
Jacob: cool
me: This weather you need it haha
6:07 PM Jacob: its cold here too
6:08 PM me: I will have Taylor to snuggle with tomorrow night!
Haha
Jacob: haha
6:10 PM no men for u?
6:11 PM me: I'm taking a break I don't make great decisions haha
Jacob: good ides
idea
me: ?
weird...what did he mean good idea...that is kind of RUDE
6:12 PM Jacob: to take a break i was agreeing
me: I've taken long breaks in between boys
and here is where we get defensive towards each other
6:13 PM Jacob: not between us and yr ex finance
me: You didn't either
6:14 PM Jacob: yes i been with my fiance since jan 2010
we broke up oct 2008
Okay I get it this is where we should STOP talking...but I'm a sucker
me: Well it was the same for me
Time frame
In the sense that I was "engaged" in Feb 2010
Jacob: u got engaged 1 month later
6:15 PM me: The time bw relationships was the samew
Jacob: gotcha
6:16 PM me: So I did spend lots of time
The same as you
"Single"
As in we essentially spent the same amount of time "single"...
I just rushed pretty fast into my engagment/marriage
(he obviously doesn't know about the marriage part because really none of his business and most people don't know)
My family and everyone else things we were only engaged (this was planned and will be explained later).
6:18 PM Jacob: k
me: K
So now I'm going to try and change the subject fast because I'm NOT liking the way it is going!
6:19 PM So do u have anything planned for toastmaster things
Ie in case you have to speak
6:24 PM Jacob: no i can wing something if they want me to i guess
me: Just a thought so you don't get surprised
6:26 PM Jacob: ok going to my meeting have fun with Taylor
me: Thanks good luck at your meeting
Wow this conversation was weird.
The conversation is not as fun as sometimes they are.
It was almost like we were arguing.
And really why does it all matter?...it shouldn't matter.
Why am I still talking to him?
So annoyed at myself.
To be continued...
**If you are looking for MyExBoyfriendProject it is the Right side.** Those who know me know my love for things pop culture and reality tv. I love a good heroine and girl who comes out on top...because I want to. Once a girl named Lauren chose a boy over an intership in Paris. I have made similar misguided mistakes...but Lauren made it to Paris (a year later). I hope to make it to my Paris (both literally and not). Here are my struggles, wants, wishes, hopes and fears as I make it there.
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