Well it's not literally a real shotgun wound but it sure does feel like it (well if I was to guess what feeling shot is like).
The thing that really keeps me going are my friends...the girls if you will...so I will expand a little on them.
A lot of this comes in response to my post yesterday of the update most recently of PH.
Taylor~ usually not a day goes by that I don't talk to her in someway. She is a true southern bell and one of the people that I can travel with easily. (Sometimes travelling can be difficult especially to third world countries haha). We joke around that we have "ruined cities"...some of my favourite memories with her include trips to Vegas, Lake Tahoe, Singapore, Thailand, and in just about 5 weeks Toronto. I look up to her like a big sister and aspire to be more like her. She looks how I wished I looked when I was a little girl (more about the Doll story later). Blond, gorgeous, teeny tiny waist, great rack, small Barbie feet...you get the picture. She has so many uplifting quotes/points/emails that I couldn't do it justice but need to start including some in my blog.
Melody~ my fun seriously spunky girlfriend that is a pillar of strength. She has been such a fun person to hang out with. I am consistantly amazed by her talents (she could totally be a professional makeup artist)!
Since I'm a movie lover I would liken her to Alice Cullen (from Twilight...I know hold your groan) but intuitive, smart, great dark short hair, teenytiny and just beautiful. She sent me a seriously great email about this crazy time in my life, here is a part of it...
I would inflict physical harm upon that boy (if you could even call him that…it requires balls and he apparently doesn’t have any) if I saw him! You deserve so much more and you have good, honest love to give and he just doesn’t deserve it from someone as good as you. Somewhere in the future, you will look at this situation and realize why you had to endure such a horrible lesson to learn something so important about yourself and that lesson will in turn give you something even better and something worth every tear. You just have to hang in there and wait for it. You can do it. I know how strong you are.
You have SUCH an awesome friend in Taylor. If you ever need to talk or to cry or to scream at…I’m here for you! Big hugs and lots of thoughts are heading your way. I miss you.
I do have to say that I was quite surprised to find out that you guys had actually already "tied the Knot",(I know I know I have some explaining to do!) and I'm really sorry you had to keep that bottled up for so long. That must have been really difficult for you. I hope you know that you can tell any of us anything. We are your best friends, and it is part of our "job description" as a best friend to not judge, and be supportive of each other, no matter what. You can call me at any time to chat about any thing you need to talk about.
Jane is like the mama bear in our group and the glue. She makes sure everything is okay with everyone and she really seriously taught me how to hug properly (along with Eva) and how to climb a tree (on my 20th birthday...I'm obviously a city girl). Best rack of the group haha...Sophie (who is tiny) has taken to wearing her bra as a hat on occasion! Dark thick amazing hair...we joke that if you put Jane and Eva together they would have the perfect hour glass body. Here is part of her email....
There is also Quinn...who is brilliant in every way possible. Quinn is one of those girls that just gets more and more beautiful as she ages...I know that seems weird but it is so true. I've been sneaking to her house some nights just to spend the night with a supportive friend.
There is Val she has been a great huge support to me. Val is a track star...EVERY single one of my boy friends has had a crush on her at one point...one of my friends is like oh the one with the gray eyes (she really has unique eyes). She is the one that I think everyone pines to be with and she is hilarious, sweet and so lovely...I am excited to see who she ends up with. She has prayed for me, had me stay with her so many times just to ease the pain that I'm feeling, and has the best heart ever.
Sophie, is my amazing friend who lives in (I think) the coldest place in Canada. I'm going to visit her in her city in February (I know what am I thinking- I hate the cold!) but I will already be that far West for another reason. She is probably the most unique and artistic of all of us. She makes the BEST Christmas crafts so I hope she never gets tired of making them...I ALWAYS look forward to those.
There they are but not nearly enough justice explaining all of them. I will do my best as I go along. These are my pillars of strength, my rocks! And I love them more than anything.