I guess there no longer avoiding this issue.
I have mom issues.
No surprize or shock I've always had them.
I cannot get along with my mom...at all.
I will have to delve into this with much more detail at a later time.now
So ughhh just got in a huge argument over the phone with my mom.
Awesome (where is that sarcasm font) to do that at work.
Anyway I'm shaking I'm so livid.
(I told her well I already got your gifts because Christmas is in 2 weeks.) And to be honest I would rather give them a gift I spent lots of time thinking of and saving and getting then just arbitrarily getting them $100 gift that they won't like anyway.
So I'm like "I DON'T know whats going on?!" (which is why I'm so incredibly frustrated and depressed because PH is avoiding me because he can!).
"I have told you EVERYTHING...I'm just as shocked"
And my mom says "well it doesn't add up."
And I'm like "I KNOW it doesn't add up and now I can't get any information from him."
Then she says "well if you think we are going to the police and jeopardizing our future travel you have another things coming...just kiss your stuff goodbye."
So I'm like "Mom I have told you everything I'm just as confused and upset about it and I can't do anything about it so probably I should contact a lawyer."
Awesome so now I have to argue the validity of what I'm saying to my own parents...great.
This makes me want to freak out and I can't handle this at all.
A little background...I'm consumed with guilt because my parents have helped me pay for my education. So since I've collected a paycheck at this temp job I have been giving them 20% of my paycheck PLUS a one time lump sum of $2000 to cover some of the cost of the wedding deposits that they put down. I actually couldn't bear to live with them any longer so I moved in with my brother simply because I couldn't deal with the daily confrontation and negativity. I do recognize that without them I would be homeless living under a bridge at this point.
I also don't know whey they think I'm keeping a big secret or any ...I have told them EVERYTHING the entire situation just doesn't make any sense whatsoever...and I can't help that. PH is not even communicating with me and I don't know why. This morning I sent him a text "Please send me an update as soon as possible as to what is going on" and NOTHING. I am so frustrated I DON'T know what is going on or what to do. And now I feel like I have to defend myself against my parents. This is the point where I feel like life is impossible to deal with.