Probably totally helps that my fav instructor taught on Saturday (Day 10) and Sunday (Day 11).
So Monday was Day 12 and I was supposed to go with Shelby to the 830 class.
I am a little bit anal also...so when it is an 830pm class I arrive at 8 so that I can get a good spot
(against the back wall where I can hide my amateur yoga skills better).
I always rather arrive somewhere early so I can "settle in" before starting a class.
So at 814pm Shelby messaged me to let me know she was bailing.
This totally annoyed me.
I hate when people say they will do something and bail.
However, it ended up being a decent class.
Oh yea and typically my mum comes to Monday yoga but she had an MRI (good reason to ditch).
Yesterday Tuesday was Day 13 and I was going to take a Day off but I decided to go to the 10pm class to try out a late class.
Shelby joined me yesterday.
It was a perfect 10pm class.
Less flow/vinyasa and more holds in static positions.
And these positions all happened to be positions I hate (which really means they are positions that I need to practice more.)
And the instructor finished off by coming around for 3 breathes with a lemon scented oil to do a neck stretch for each person.
Which made me think I really need to go for a massage...(and I really don't mean this in a super creepy way )but I need to just be touched by another human being.
Those 3 breathes just made me feel so good.
So now I just need to figure out how to budget a massage in somewhere.
My head is less torrenty (I think I just made up a word)...
however there are gusts of Spencer and Jacob that swirled up (talking to Jacob yesterday he said "I love you Teagan 16 TIMES in our conversation yesterday over chat...and the guilt I carry about that should be awful enough to stop!)
other gusts of selfhate wanting it to become selflove,
other gusts of why am I not even looking at job postings when I've basically passed all the Canadian tests?
other gusts of Florida...two MORE of my relatives are buying homes where Spencer lives so conversation is always about how amazing Florida is (which I totally agree I just wish it didn't feel like a stab to the gut every.single.time)
Wow that does not sound less torrenty...but I feel like it is.
Guess I better keep going to yoga until I figure it all out!
Hang in there! I have been "torrenty" too lately - I think we all have our reasons and it's just a matter of trying to push those thoughts out and try to focus on the positives. It's EXTREMELY hard though so I think it's awesome you're even trying and going to yoga has to help. I need to get into that again soon too! Now if only I could find the time! ;)
ReplyDelete@AnEarly30- Thanks :) I deffo need to work on the positives for sure. xo
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