my crazy last 48 hours

So Sunday I headed over to our sorority house for our annual general meeting AGM.
Was sworn into my new position (yay!)
Had a tour of the house.


I noticed one of the young sorority girl's hand/wrist/fingers was extremely swollen.
So I took her to the hospital at 5pm.
Which landed us there until 2am before she was finally admitted to a bed...
(the glorious Canadian "free" health care system at it's finest...actually there are a lot of things I could vent about it but I'm going to hold my tongue).
She's still there but making improvements.
It was nice to chat away and find out all the things we had in common (she also loves OTH (and has a tattoo that has to do with it!)/KimK/our sorority...I totally made her cry when I was talking about the amazing friendships I have with my sisters!)
So obviously my 6:30pm Sunday night date with MrInvester was postponed until tonight!


Then last night I had a meeting at One in Yorkville 
(the same restaurant I went to here with Will for dinner that Friday night).
For a meeting for that job opportunity that I think I'm going to decline.
Also the person I met with last night asked if MrDentist was my boyfriend 
(because that is the person who was with my work colleague who we ran into when we were there last time).


Got a text from Val re: party I wasn't invited to (read about THAT vent here).
Saying "MM was there...but the good news is he said he was just finishing reading the hunger games...due to your influence.  If you're going to leave a mark-that's a good one! lol"
Which truly shows how dorky I am...but at least I got him on trend.
And I bite my tongue again to keep from asking about him...NOT that I want to date him BUT because part of me wants to know (for some strange self pain inflicting reason haha) does he have a girlfriend? did he ask about me? etc.


So I'm just getting ready for work and the immediate dinner date with MrInvester who sort of looks like Clark Kent from his pics.
But maybe I just think a lot of boys look like Clark Kent if they have dark medium hair and glasses.
I'm kind of a nerd like that.

Pic from here.  I totally found Dean Cain super dreamy...huge total crush...who wouldn't want a nerdy guy that could also change into a muscle bound hero in a telephone booth?!

Weird

The past 24 hours has been weird.
Totally weird.


I heard back from that job offer.
The one involving the sketchy colleague.
I briefly had mentioned it and I'm not sure if it is the right move for me.
And I arranged a meeting for Monday (no harm in checking it out right?...maybe??? I don't know!)


Then today I had a big meeting in my head office.
When I walked into the meeting it was BigWig#1 BigWig#2 and BigWig#3 a rather intimidating bunch.
I really can't get into what they do but suffice to say they are true BIGWIGS.


Anywho how awkward was it when I recognized BigWig#3...
He was the other guy of the "couple" at that dinner from this post.
As in a second colleague and I sat beside and chatted on and on with the person I thought was his wife.
And let me tell you...
It was NOT his wife.


So as we are sitting in this meeting where I'm supposed to be showing off my knowledge...
instead I'm thinking...oh GOSH...he is going to tell MrDentist he saw me today and the other work colleague....I should have dressed better...this is crazy...so weird that I know he has a mistress...this is so weird...I wonder if he even recognizes me (in my Clark Kent glasses nerdy button down and slacks versus straight hair/contacts/cocktaildress/heels from that dinner).


So just as things I think are going ok.
BigWig#2 points out a feature of a tool...and used the comparison of "well using these settings would be like using it on you (BigWig#3) versus her.  She has 4" of fat to go through" (now although NOT appropriate BigWig#2 was referring to a sales rep that had just presented).
BUT THEN BigWig#3 turns to me and says..."no offense Teagan".


I paused.
And swallowed hard.
He just basically called me out and basically stated I was obese.
Then BigWig#2 says "I wasn't referring to Teagan I was referring to the sales person!"
I felt the blood continue to pool in my face.
I was HUMILIATED.
Great he (BigWig#3) thought that reference was to me AND then pointed that out to BigWig#1 and BigWig#2!!!!!!!!


I tried to laugh it off like "wow guess I should get to the gym tonight" haha.
Only I was trying NOT to cry.
All these comments were just SO terribly mean!


So of course the whole day I keep thinking about him over beers with the work colleague and MrDentist..."...yea and then I called Teagan out for being fat!"
And I cringe inside.
Ughhhhhhhhhhh what.a.day!

Weekend Update

A busy but good weekend.
This week I had a crazy stressful week and was happy to see it fly by.
It has pretty much been non-stop and I wish I had taken more pictures.
Instead I just took a bunch right now to hopefully fill that void.
I need to get better about that because I find myself wishing I had more pics from earlier in the weekend.


On Friday Quinn drove up from the SC (it's like the OC only in southeastern Ontario haha) with her baby.
They were coming for a girl's sleepover.
Val and Eva joined us for drinks and snacks until the wee hours of the morning.


We just hung out listened to music and ate.
We had cheese, veggies, fruit (and of course wine!)
I wish I had taken pictures because I used my serving dishes.


Saturday morning Quinn and I brewed some yummy coffee.
And I made the same breakfast I made for Taylor when she came here in January.
(Read here if you missed it).


We hung out until midday when they left.
And my parents came into town.
They had made last minute plans to come here.
This was actually supposed to be the weekend I hung out with MissDentist (MrDentist's BFF) but she rescheduled for the 17th (well I she says she is rescheduling and I'm trying NOT to be paranoid that she just doesn't want to be my friend which I think would be just as bothersome as MrDentist disappearing...because I have this issue of wanting everyone to like me...AND the issue of making more cool girl friends ...I totally need to work on this in all aspects).


Anywho my parents came to Toronto with my dog.
We just had a low key night of pizza and a movie.
We rented Drive.
And y'all I didn't like it (and I love me some Ryan Gosling!)


It was one of those movies that I wasn't expecting to be like that.
I was expecting like The Italian Job or The Transporter kind of movie.
But it was SUPER graphic and violent.  
Think more like Kill Bill or a Quentin Territino (I cannot spell) flick.
And the trailer to me did not seem like this.
Here it is.

So we actually were all ready to go to sleep at 10.
So we did.
I air mattress-ed it up so my parents could have my room.
Haha the joys of a one bedroom apartment!


This morning we got up and had breakfast and headed out shopping 
(really what else are my parents and I going to do?)
I got these beauties from my FAVOURITE store Restoration Hardware.

I got this chair last week.
Awesome right?
I got it from my least favourite store...Wal-Mart.
But it does the job and at $148 for a slipper chair well worth it!

The pillow fits PERFECTLY I was so excited when I realized this...after I already bought it haha.

This little guy has been kicking it around on my desk I also got him last week.
I think the folks at YoungHouseLove got me on the craze of white ceramic animals.
Owls are near and dear to my heart though.

I want to share with you some amazing things from Taylor that she brought for me when she came to visit.
Seriously she is that amazing that she also brought a gift when her coming was a gift in itself.
Gorgeous right?
Now I just need not to procrastinate and get photos of us in them.
Tay I did attempt to umm mend the beautiful candleholder...
however everyone says they love my candlesticks (which works out great!)

My parent's have just returned from Portugal (for my grandfather's anniversary mass).
And they brought back this from his house.
My grandfather was in the military in Rhodesia.
It obviously is very special for me to have this.
I miss my grandfather very much.

Of course my parents don't leave here without fully stocking my fridge and bar.
i.e.

Seriously I am so spoiled!
I'm such a lucky girl.
My parents also got me this jewelry armoire from Bombay.
Which apparently was a brand managed out of Fort Worth Texas before closing all US chains.
It is still pretty popular and big here up in Canada though.
They had a sale today so instead of it being $676.87 it was on sale for total of $399. 

It actually reads a lot darker then this pic which is good for my other dark furniture.

It won't be in for 2 weeks but I will show you it when I'm done.
My parents did NOT like my current jewelry organization.

Then we stopped by Joe Fresh which is one of my FAV stores also.
And I got some of these basics.
This I can't wait to wear when I go to my parent's new home in Florida.

Did you catch that?
Yes my parents just bought a home in Florida.
Where Spencer lives...I get it Florida is a big state but umm its a little close for my panicky self...thoughts of running into him on the beach me feeling chunky him with his new fab girlfriend/fiancee/wife....ughhhhh!


My parents invited me there for Easter weekend.
And they actually invited Taylor to join us too.
Anyways let me move on before I start to panic about the whole thing.
Ughhhh...out of all the FREAKING states to live in...I need to move on.


I also got some basic Cardigans (I'm obsessed with cardigans I love how they look so preppy).
And at $16 each you really cannot beat that pricing (and JoeFresh is amazing quality!)

And this chambray dress $29.

Which I cannot wait to pair with a skinny belt and to get a pair of cowboy boots when I visit Dallas in a few months!
This dress is perfect to wear when I go to visit Taylor.


So did y'all have a great weekend?
Now I'm just getting all set for the work week to begin.
And I NEED to get on the ball for things like signing onto that dating account and get going on that again.
Because I know y'all are dying for more Mr_____ stories ...am I right?!
And in case you're wondering ...no I haven't heard a peep from MrDentist...but I'm trying not to think about that anymore.

How I get rid of my frustrations...

I have been C25King it up (Couch to 5K).
So I simply load up some new songs on my iPod.
And hit the gym.


So I guess a little bit about me.
I really love and identify and THRIVE with music.
There are times I can just listen to a song on repeat a bajillion times.

I love double entredres (not sure how to spell) by the way.
Which is why I love JayZ and Drake. 
Anywho music gives me balance and sometimes I just need to dance around my place in my fav rock out outfit which includes...knee high socks and shorts and a headband and hairbrush in hand BELTING a song out(because clearly I cannot do THAT on a treadmill.)...one day if I feel brave enough I will post a pic of this because I look RIDICULOUS!


Here are my latest favs...
With some of my favourite lines and what they make me think of...


First up The Wanted (I'm glad you came)...

My fav part 
you cast a spell on me, spell on me
you hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no one else can see, you and me


Even if this song is rather repetitive and simplistic I like it. 
I still like the song even if it does make me think of MrDentist (
I KNOW could I be any more super duper annoying about him right now?! Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!)

SO to act as a way to take back that song...Kelly Clarkson (Stronger)

My fav lines 
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone"


I also so in love with this song by Down with Webster (Royalty)...

My fav lines...ok I just realized it's half the song...whatever I'm totally into it.


Addicted to the lights and sounds
Want your bad habits and you wear 'em like a crown...


This is all about "that" crowd Missy/Colleagues/MrDentist/Playmate obviously


So driven she don't need chauffeurs 
And if you're not VIP then give up
to think she's above the bar that's a chin up
and getting lit up's the only thing that's relevant 
when all that's in your closet is designer or a skeleton...


(Clearly "that" crowd again)


Life of the party don't question her loyalty
Playin all night games
Every day's the same
Pull out the red carpet for the walk of shame
Nothin' to loose but a lot to gain *ESPECIALLY this line...seriously WTF
Same yeah you know her name royalty let her reign


You gotta give your blood 
you learn it on the streets
now baby it's your nature
now every body's gotta eat
you're better off alone *umm hello me.
you're better off than me
But everytime I'm gone I'm everything you need *always want what you can't have...this is so me right now
You got it on your face *yea I can't hide a thing
it's painted on the walls
you're looking for a problem but you can have them all
you said it all before
you fast for the feast
at least I care when you can care least (this makes me so so annoyed with myself!)


I love this song because it is so darn cute.
Canadian by the way -Carly Rae Jepson...and from my FAV gossip blog Lainey's she wrote this "Canadian Idol’s Carly Rae Jepsen was just signed to Justin Bieber’s label. It’s a big deal. It’s an even bigger deal when Justin, his gf, and all their friends pretty much make your video. Please."  


This is totally a home video include Justin Bieber, Selena Gomez, Ashley Tisdale, Carly (herself) and probably a ton more of people that I'm not sure of exactly who they are... How FUN is this?!?!?!  This is TOTALLY the dorky type of stuff I did growing up with my girlfriends.  I love that they did this!

My fav line is actually the chorus
hey, I just met you,
and this is crazy,
but here's my number, 
so call me, maybe?


And finally I'm loving this song by Train (Drive By)

And I love this lyric/verse 
"Oh but that one night was more than just right *I obviously think of THIS night
I didn't leave you cause I was all through
Oh I was overwhelmed and frankly scared as hell
Because I really fell for you"  *what I obviously want to be the case of MrDentist and I but I KNOW this is not the reality...reality is he's just not that into me and that is that.


So let's pretend for a moment that I'm not liking these songs because they all make me reflect on things going on (or rather not going on when it comes to MrDentist) in my life...CLEARLY I need to move on because this boy and his negative crowd is taking up entirely way too much of my head space.
My apologies for this weird post.
I'm giving you a glimpse of what a dorky strange girl I am.

Hope y'all weren't holding your breath...

No response.
Nada.
Super duper annoyed.
PS how rude is that?
PPS well I guess it has only been about 24 hours I could be a little more patient...however my patience is pretty much a thin as it's going to get.



Pic from here

The Voice Mail

"Hiiiii-iiiiiiiiiiiiii it's Teagan
Um haven't talked to you in a little bit
Wanted to know if you wanted to get together soon
Talk to you later
By-ee"


At least I don't have the privilege of hearing THAT back myself.
Ugh I hate voice mail.
And I think I sound about 11 years old.
Well it's done so whatever.
Now to pretend I'm not stressing it.
Or over analyze what I should have said instead.


Pic from here

Monday night with the girls

So I told y'all I had last night I had dinner scheduled with Missy again (from this post).
Anywho I debated over what to wear to sushi.
Then figured it would be a low key girls night.
So I decided on this.

Using the boots again.

Showing you my accessories...and no I don't mean my cleavage haha.

I headed to her condo (which I found out my colleague pays for incidentally).
It was so pretty and right smack downtown.
I even felt myself get a little emerald eyed.
And as she finished getting ready we were chatting and it was kind of nice doing the girly thing.
And y'all I'm really struggling because I'm girly and not quite feeling like I fit in sometimes with my Waterloo girls though I LOVE LOVE LOVE them.


She then let me know that the Playmate would be joining us.
Yes that one from this night.
To which I replied the more the merrier (heck why not).

Side note:  ever feel like the fat kid?  

I totally did these girls MAYBE 

weight 100lbs a piece and I'm super curvy.  

So umm yea there was this total awkward moment

 when I'm like...they are looking at me

 like I'm this dumpy average girl...

total side note ignore me.

However, I do note I've been

pretty tough on myself when it comes

to my body lately.

Weird I just noticed this...

I hope this isn't going to become

a trend and I hope this hasn't 

been too annoying...has anyone elsee

noticed this???

Feel free to ignore this side note ramble!

So the Playmate picked us up in her boyfriends car (does anyone actually pay for anything themselves?!).
It was super exciting to hear that the Playmate had just scored the lead in a hot new music video shooting this week!
What a fab fun lifestyle...seriously.


We got in and after realizing the place we were going to for sushi was closed for Family Day (our holiday yesterday).
We headed to the Thompson hotel for sushi.
Yes THAT Thompson hotel.
The one that practically screams MrDentist and if I was a gambling women I bet he stayed there this weekend.

So we got to work ordering sushi and got right into some big conversations about boys.
And I told them a little bit more about MrDentist about sort of the progression of things and then how he fell off the face of this earth.


And Missy filled me in on some things.
Here are her "facts":
1. He really like me he talked to her about me for an hour before Vegas.
2.  In Vegas he talked about me...a lot.
3. He told my colleague he thinks I'm "the one".  (Is your heart beating way fast???) I think I threw my hand up at that comment.
(Yeah well someone else (well both Spencer and Jacob) once told me that and you see how THAT worked out).
4.  All the women he has most recently dated are 5-8 years older than him...making them in their early 40s.  The reason this is important is apparently they are the "pursuers" unlike me who is very VERY clearly a "persue-e" 
5.  He did tell the guys he was falling for me.
6. BUT he said he didn't want to because he wanted to get his life more together first* 
(Ok this does NOT make sense to me...does it make sense to anyone else?!)


So the Playmates perspective....she said either.
* He does really like me and he's scared 
(The Rules CLEARLY disagree with this).
OR
* He is a big time player and these are all the lines he uses 
(The Rules would TOTALLY agree with this one).
I clearly bought and devoured The Rules (a dating book) this weekend...just saying.


So after much debate and discussion.
It was determined I should call him today.
And leave a breezy message along the lines of "Hi you, haven't seen you in awhile, we should do something"...I say leave a message because I fully anticipate getting his voice mail.
Which is not to say that I have decided to call because dear blog readers.
I want YOUR advice.
I suppose a call couldn't hurt or make me feel that much more embarrassed.
But what do you think????


We also had a big discussion about Missy and my colleague.
She was trying to decide to move on or stay put.
It was really interesting because clearly something is working for her.
Maybe it is the university tuition, condo and 30K new car budget he has given her (she is super mad at the 30K budget by the way)...I think the Playmate and I's eyes nearly fell out of our heads at that one.
And we both sort of said you know the grass is always greener on the other side.
I think I was just FLOORED that this actually happens in real life.
Stunned!
And I learned some other things that BLEW my mind but not really my place to share (I may have over shared already and am half debating removing this paragraph).


Overall, dinner was good.
I had fun and the three of us planned to go to the movies on Wednesday.
Then the bill came.
And since Missy picked it up for our dinner I felt it was only fair to return the favour.
When the bill did come she grabbed it.
And I said "no no I got this one".
And she was actually just CHECKING it then she commented "you got off easy our dinner was $300 last week".  And THAT rubbed me the completely wrong way.
Now that I think about it I SHOULD have said...would you like the $100 to cover the difference?!
But I didn't I just laughed it off.
But I think that is super rude.
AND I do have to say I ordered one glass of wine, edamame (we split) and two rolls (one veggie $5 and one more fancy $15). The playmate ordered one main and one glass of house wine.  Missy ordered three Martini's, a roll and a main.


So needless to say the next dinner I'm going to let them know I'm on a budget (umm because no one pays my rent etc...only I TOTALLY won't say that haha).  And say I'm more comfortable splitting the cheques individually.  
And if they don't like that.
Well then,  I guess they just aren't that into me.




Pics from here here

A Saturday Night Distraction

So I told y'all I forced myself out on Saturday night.
But not without frantically messaging Taylor on what to wear.
After negating this outfit.

For some reason I thought the jean skirt was drawing attention to the widest part of me (obvs my hips and butt) so that was that.

Then this one.

Same outfit minus the jean skirt.  But then I thought I looked even worse.  Maybe it was how I was standing...but you can definitely see my curvy hips from here...maybe I needed to add a belt to emphasize my waist now that I'm looking at it a day or two later.

Then this one.

I know this looks remarkably similar to above but it's a different blank tunic/dress thing with a wider but not as deep V neck.

I felt like I was totally running out of time AND was way over thinking it.
And when I thought about this crowd I figured I looked like I was trying too hard.
So I swapped out for jeans and flats.

Jeans, black v-neck sweater (different than all the above ones I swear haha apparently I keep things very similar and basic).  And my new flats that I love.

I got these pretties in Ottawa when we stopped by Joe Fresh to get me some winter boots and thermal underwear (read here)...and I obviously could NOT resist them.  They were on sale for $4.97 seriously what an amazing score.  AND since I'm currently OBSESSED with bows they were perfect!.  

We headed out to glow in the dark mini putt.
Fun right?!
I can't remember the last time I did something like this.
There was a lot of high schoolers there too haha.

It was Laurel her fiance, another couple, another single girl, myself and two boys.
We had to split into two groups of four for minigolf.
I got the FIRST hole in one and ended up tying with the other boy in our group...
let's call him B.
B and I tied for winning out of our little group.
Who knew I had some mini putt skills?!


Then we headed on over to Dave&Busters to continue the gaming fun.
B and I ended up splitting a game card thing to get more plays in.
Which also meant we would be hanging out the rest of the night.  
And it made sense because everyone sort of coupled off so we did as well.
I totally schooled him at tons of games.

I'm pretty skilled at this game too...just saying.

And I did find myself sort of trying out the flirting muscles a little.
Like a tentative warm up after an injury.
He's sweet and nice and we had fun.
But y'all don't get too excited...he will make a great friend I think.


We had some quick chats, a few more games and before I knew it it was midnight and Laurel and her fiance were ready to call it a night (and they had driven me there).
So we headed on home.
And I tried to not think about MrDentist or the fact that I haven't heard a peep 
from him since here.
But good new I'm getting back out there.
I'm trying to have some fun.
So this crew needs a new name too because we are doing something again this coming Friday.
Hmmmm how about the CanadaCrew.  
I think this fits because they really remind me of very typical Canadians (I mean that in a totally good way...like unpretentious and just up for a good drama free time).
Hope y'all are having a good weekend too.




Pics from here here here

Honesty

Why the heck am I wondering what MrDentist is doing tonight?!
Why am I contemplating texting him.
Then start to wonder if I should text him tomorrow.
Don't worry I won't.
Just letting you know what's going on in my head.
Sigh.

Things I tried not to notice or think about yesterday

1. That MrDentist didn't communicate at all yesterday.
That I need to sort of dust myself off and force myself to forget about all of that.
That I didn't seriously think of everything over and over again (as I mentioned in this post).
I mean why do all those things/say all those things/then basically go MIA.
I am so tangential right now (and I think I'm using tangential wrong in the sentence by the way).
So sick of boys going MIA...hmmm though sometimes I go MIA when I don't know how to reject someone ie. MrFinance (as mentioned here and here).
Note to self STOP doing that because it's mean.

2. It would have been my pseudo two year wedding anniversary yesterday.  Scary.  Which just made me feel ill actually.  And makes me think I should throw out the Burberry Trench fund straight into the hire a Dlawyer/private investigator to get this ball rolling.  But then I try not to think of it because the financial commitment is just way too burdening and I think in the back of my head the emotional thing probably would get to me a little.

3. Why oh WHY did I open up to MrDentist about Spencer.  Now I feel more humiliated and embarrassed about my past.  Note to self...no opening up anymore early on.

Well that's actually it but they were seemed like some pretty big things yesterday that I was trying to ignore...but wasn't actually very successful.
Total pink elephant in the room.
Does anyone else use that  expression or did I make it up?

I know there is an expression of an elephant in the room (which is impossible to ignore).
I always use the example, if someone told you "do NOT to think of a pink elephant" ...
isn't it kind of funny that THAT is all you can think about??? No?
I'm guess I'm strange and just a little rambly this morning.


Pic from here

Monday night dinner with the Missy

Y'all so on Monday night (I know so SO behind!)
I had dinner with the Missy (aka my colleagues mistress...the one from this crazy evening).
She had suggested one of her new favourite places called The Shore Club.


I tried to make a new outfit from old clothes and I think I succeeded.
Plus I wanted to wear these boots more.
They are from Nordstrom's 
(from Northpark in Dallas where I had so many fun shopping trips with Tay).

Sound fancy dancy and expensive right?
It was.
You know how I think sometimes a restaurant is nice?
When they give you a pretty bag for your leftovers.

So I walked in and y'all it was super pretty.
I thought it was a fab restaurant.
And to be honest I sort of was trying to find out a little more about MrDentist because she attended the boys Vegas trip (yes I know that seems so strange).

AND I have to admit I was slightly hesitant because of how the bill situation happened that crazy evening.
I got even more worried when we ordered Kir Royale's and oysters and beef carpacchio to start.
And when she ordered the steak and lobster and a second cocktail I got a tad bit nervous and started doing the mental tallying.
I order the halibut and asparagus (you saw my leftovers in this fun fab post) 

We had some really good talks.
And I found it a lot of fun (and a great way to spend a Monday night!)
I learned more about her and tried not to be such an open book myself 
(I usually am SUCH an open book and sometimes when you don't know someones exact motive for having you out for dinner it may not be such a great idea.  Like sometimes I feel like I should just keep my mouth shut!  But instead I usually open up so fast (which sometimes can not be such a great idea).


So anyway she told me that MrDentist really likes me but...
he apparently told her he was trying NOT to fall for me.
Ummmmm why???
Anyway she gave me the advice to date other people.
So by the end of dinner I was also thoroughly confused.


Then the tab came and guess what?!
She picked it up!
I said we should at least split it.
She said it was to make up for that crazy night.
So I offered to get dinner the next time (I am all about being fair for that stuff).


And y'all I just don't know.
I know from the conversation that she doesn't like her "situation".
Nor does she expect her situation to change.
And parts of me really feel bad for her.
And parts of me are super weary of such a social climber.
But I need to continue to explore and grow more friendships here in the city.
So I'm treading cautiously.


Anyway on our way out of the restaurant.
A group of 4 business men stopped us to compliment our boots (awesome!)
And it's great because Missy is just cool enough to throw sort of the bitch vibe out without guys getting offended.
I mainly stood there and smiled and giggled.
Before we wished them a good evening and properly strutted away.


Pics from here