|I've been told I can kind of look like her (I know super compliment right? Anywho this is from Honey one of my secret fav movies. Only I get super annoyed that she doesn't see the incredible guy she has right there...anyway I'm just cranky.|
This is a total vent post.
In fact I suggest you skip it.
So I leave today for Ottawa for a girls weekend.
I mean YAY right?!
So why am I not focusing on that and burning a killer roadmix for us?
Um because hi I'm annoyingly smitten with MrDentist.
Who returned from Vegas on Monday.
Who I hadn't heard from since last Thursday.
If you remember I was in FABULOUS New York City Monday into Tuesday.
A few texts on Monday occured.
A few on Tuesday.
On Wednesday knowing of my impending Ottawa trip this weekend he sent me this text message... "was hoping to see you. Possible?"
Wednesday he called and we chatted a bit.
Only it was a little awkward.
He made a comment about "have you been on lots of dates" and myself after fumbling around asking him "why would you say that?" blurted out "I can't help it if people ask me out"...ummm what was I thinking?!
Maybe trying so hard to appear in demand?!
Ugh I suck.
Because he doesn't know that after spending a few times with him.
I cleared my entire roster just for him.
So we sort of made plans for Sunday.
He made some kind of suggestion for maybe doing something Thursday.
But it was too rushed and not enough time and so I just suggested we talk tomorrow and plan on Sunday.
I was also supposed to be in my hometown next following weekend.
But I don't really want to so I mentioned we could possibly do something then.
And we were going to talk about it Thursday.
So Thursday (yesterday).
I felt bad that maybe I was too aloof and too cool and maybe he thought I wasn't interested.
So I messaged him saying something along the line of I hope you are having a great day. I'm excited to see you Sunday.
I tried to call him just after 10 and got his machine.
To which I did not leave a message.
(I hate leaving messages).
And I haven't heard from him.
Oh my how things have changed when good morning texts/calls came in regularly.
Maybe this thing was just a flash in the pan.
A spark that was so bright and brilliant and couldn't sustain without burning out.
And while I should just get back up on the horse.
Start dating again.
Focus on a fun girls weekend ahead.
But I'm having a hard time doing that because I'm kind of bummed.
And way over thinking things...
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