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Wow so many ups and downs it's like a rollercoaster up in here.
More good than bad (happy to report).
And I know this is going to seem really rather disjointed as I haven't updated for the week.
And boy a lot can happen in a week.
I just want to get it all off my chest so that I can let it go and have a good sleep tonight.
So here we go....
Had the BEST past 24 hours with MrDentist.
He is incredible.
He's smart, funny, sexy and makes me feel amazing.
And not just because he happens to be a very VERY good kisser.
I was supposed to have my first sorority even today.
Except every single person bailed.
Therefore my first event=failure.
But this enabled me to spend an afternoon looking at downtown condos with MrDentist.
Us strolling through the Yorkville area.
Grabbing an espresso and stopping into some shops.
And stopping into a PERFECT amazing restaurant called One.
On the way out the restaurant running into my work colleague
(yes the one with the mistress from last weeks shenanigans!)
Made some cordial small talk.
We had discussed a little bit of business before (read this post if you missed it).
So this was sort of looping back to that meeting before and business opportunities.
MrDentist also paid me a very nice compliment in front of my work colleague (amazing).
Then the colleague texting MrDentist after seeing us that said...
"stick with that girl I think I can make her richer than she already is"
Seriously this dude doesn't even know me.
So much so that he has NO freaking clue my financial situation.
AND !!!! Earlier this week he suggested MrDentist hook up with one of the mistresses friends because she was ummm how do I put this ...
good to go?!
MrDentist inviting me to the Thompson tonight to spend the night.
It is technically a boys night.
So I declined instead and he drove me home.
And he kissed me goodbye and today was filled with little kisses and big kisses and touches and wow am I ever falling hard for this guy.
So in trying to be cool...heck it is a Saturday night in Toronto surely a cool girl like myself could scrounge up some plans.
Who let me know that she had plans with Eva and Eva's husband tonight...
And I was like "okay cool" but what I really was thinking...ummm how come I didn't get the invite to join them? Seriously is it that hard?!
Truth is it's because they obviously don't want me there.
And then I start to put things together.
Eva lives 15 minutes from me.
The closest of all the girls.
The last time we did something one on one...my birthday (here).
And it's not from my lack of inviting her either.
And it all came flooding to me.
I still am searching for a key group of friends.
And I reached this sudden realization.
Perhaps I am slightly growing apart from the Waterloo girls.
I'm not in the same stage of life as they are.
I've spent so many years away from them that maybe the once a year visit is what I was meant for with them.
Do I sort of resign to this fact.
Do I gracefully sort of bow out of their friendships?
And this realization made me so super duper cranky.
The fact that they didn't feel that they could extend an invitation for me to join them tonight actually made me feel angry to be honest.
I miss my bestie Taylor (which is actually kind of a DOWN but...)
Her sparkly personality is infectious.
I have the BEST times with her.
And boy do I miss that.
And boy do I want to recreate that.
She is the one person who can make me feel great about myself.
She is the first person I want to talk to with any kind of news.
Also someone I can message about something and she responds with the PERFECT response.
Case and point. I said something DUMB at lunch today that reminded me of our Vegas trip.
So I messaged Tay and started to tell MrDentist the story.
AS I'm telling the story Tay replies..."That is SO an in-and-out comment!"
She totally gets me!
I'm a rollercoaster today.