sucker

Pic from here

So I'm just getting ready to go out tonight for Laurel's birthday.
Unfortunately the food truck festival we were going to is rained out!
So we have a back plan (that may be MrAttorneys latest recommendation to me...well latest as before we stopped hanging out)...fingers crossed that I don't see him.

Especially since he texted me this afternoon.
To say "found these".
And by these he meant a bottle of Vitamin C and Zinc I had brought him 3 months ago when he was sick.
Then when I got sick a month later he couldn't find them among his packed boxes from moving.
I teased him that he always lost things.
Well I guess he eventually found them.
And texted me a pic.
Seriously what the heck am I supposed to do with that?
(I didn't respond in case you're wondering).

And in other whattheheck news today.
Remember MrDentalSurgeon from last year.
It totally fizzled out at the end of last summer.
He texted me today, "Que pasa Miss Teagan.  How have you been ? :)"
What the heck is going on with my life?

Oh and I have a date Thursday.
My life is total chaos!

Longest week

So this week felt like forever.
Probably since coming off the high of Dallas trip and Michigan trip.
Stressed with work.
Over thinking my text messages etc with Will.
Trying to figure out about the dating situation over here.

Monday and Tuesday it was just about getting through the work day.
On Wednesday after more than a year of back and forth texting I finally met up with one of my friends from high school let's call him Mitchel.
So I suggested meeting at Fabbrica at the Shops at Don Mills 
(where I went with my parents a few weeks ago).

Had a great time and it was fun to see pictures of his little one and wife.
So that was a fun Wednesday night.
Thursday I was supposed to go out with MrPravda.
And this is how it went down.

So my deal (obviously is I detest when plans change and I like to know exactly what's going on...hence the 5:21pm confirmation by myself.
So I was quite perturbed to receive this information at 6:49pm.

So it was Thursday and I was exhausted.
And I wanted to give him an out...and then he seriously suggested I meet him at JackAstor's.
Y'all know how I feel about that...

So if he was just like my buddy and wanted to meet for a drink.
Not a problem.
The thing is I don't love that area around that mall.
It is generally fairly sketchy and just not where I like to hang out.

The other thing...it is supposed to be a date.
I wouldn't mind if it was like a friend and not a big deal but I don't know it's just I didn't have the motivation to get dolled up and drive my butt over there.

So I just couldn't handle it anymore and clearly didn't feel like going.
As soon as he texted me MrPravda gave me a call.
And we tried to reschedule something for this morning.

Friday night I had my friend Shelby in town for a baseball tournament.
She didn't get here until about 12:15am though.
And we stayed up chatting.

This morning MrPravda and I had more texting miscommunication and when he hadn't confirmed (again) with 25 minutes until we were supposed to hang out...I'm kind of irritated.
I also know that I'm probably just not that into him.
So I bailed on plans I'm supposed to text him later on today but I think I'm just going to chill out at my place.

I think I was a little cocky when I went away.
Wondering what texts I would have waiting for me when I got home.
And then not really having any.

Granted they soon did follow from MrPravda, B, and MrRealtor.
And I have not heard from MrDentalSurgeon since here.
Only I'm not sure what to do about any of them.
Taylor had the suggestion that I just scrap all of them and start fresh.
Also I'm just trying not to think about Will and what happened last weekend.

Tonight is Laurel's birthday party.
She's turning 29 and to pay tribute to her last birthday she is doing it up as keg frat party.
The theme...golf pros and tennis hoes.
It's going to be the best kind of trouble! 

Oh yea AND just to update y'all on my nails (from this crappy experience).
I took off the shellac polish Thursday night and yesterday I broke my thumb nail in like the weirdest way ever.
LOOK!

So I think that shellac manicure ruins your nails for sure.
Or at least the place where I went messed them up.
So I'm going to go back to chilling on my couch!

Replies and Jibberjabber

Pic from here.

I'm bored of MrDentalSurgeon.
We had this sort of awkward date now two weeks ago (here if you missed it).
Then I didn't hear from him until this text almost a WEEK later.
To which I'm dumb and replied (here).

Then I was irritated that he took a day or so to respond with this jem of a conversation last Sunday evening...
I'd say it's time for another ...what I say ...what I think conversations.


Him:  Golfed today - starting to feel better.  How are u feeling?
Me: So so...basically slept and watched movies all weekend :( totally have cabin fever now....I'm so not meant to stay home all weekend!  Haven't been this sick in a very long time
Really you seriously didn't have time to text this whole week?  Never mind pick up the phone and call???
Him:  Awful :(  Did you miss any work this week?
Me:  Should have but I powered through...I'm busy because of going away soon.  Did you miss any work?
I'm BOOOOOOOOOOORED this conversation is even boring me...what the heck?
Him:  Didn't miss any but had a couple of days with heavy Advil Cold and Sinus intake :s
Seriously how am I supposed to respond to this....I have no response to this because frankly I'm bored...

So I didn't respond.
He knows I would be leaving soon for Dallas.
He doesn't care.
He so needs to be cut from the roster.

a Mr's birthday!

I almost forgot to tell you about MrDentalSurgeon's birthday which was 3 Saturday's ago.
Earlier I had offered to cook him dinner that night.
BUT since he didn't get a hold of me until Friday I told him that wasn't enough time so we could just go out instead.

We went to Hy's Steakhouse downtown.
It is one of 5 in Canada and the only in Toronto.
(MrDentalSurgeon is obviously a steak guy).

Pic from the website...clearly a stunning place.

Pic from their website.  

Pic from the website.  A really pretty place!

We sat in a both like this (Pic from the website).

So we relaxed had some great conversation.
Ordered a bottle of wine.
And while he was gone to the bathroom I snuck the waiter my credit card.
Because it was his birthday and all and really I haven't paid for anything up until this point.

And it also allowed this special dessert to come.
I snapped a pic after MrDentalSurgeon said "oh we should have taken a pic".

From there we met up with his friend who was on a date at SpiceRoute.
I went there with Val this night.
We clearly were rescuing his friend who had zero interest in his date.

But he sure did act like he was interested.
It BLEW my mind.
She would go the bathroom and he would be all like "I'm not into her...she's too materialistic blah blah blah".
And then when she was around he was all hand on her low back and smiling and laughing.
This made me very perplexed.
Guess dating can be just a game.
And I wonder just how many times I've been thinking one thing and it was actually the complete opposite.
How strange.

Anywho after the two of us headed back to his place
Where we proceeded to fool around.
When I was ready to go home.
He said he needed to nap for half an hour to sober up.

That made me worried so I suggested I grab a cab instead.
Plus I was wearing a bright orange mini cocktail dress.
Definitely not Sunday morning attire and I wanted to avoid the walk of shame obviously.
So with that he put me into a cab and $58 later (gulp!  Expensive night!) I was home.

I'm dumb aka I replied...

Pic from here.

Okay remember when I wrote this post (read here).
So I decided to reply to MrDentalSurgeon...

And this is what I came up with just over 24 hours after he messaged me,
"Actually I've been super sick as well...I'm guessing your sore throat wasn't bc of the raw onions ;)"
You see I guess I neglected to mention in this post.
That on our way to pick up his friend we stopped off at a gas station so he could get some cough drops.

He told me he has a bad reaction to raw onions.
And his mum put some in the pizza she made the night before.
So I laughed and asked him, "if you knew it was in there why did you eat it?"
His response "because it was really good pizza".
Such a GUY comment.

Anywho so maybe he was so distant that night... because he didn't feel great.
Anywho he blamed it on the raw onions.
But he totally had to have some kind of virus/infection.
I totally called him on it too.

Anyway I'm dumb for responding because it's been a whole 24 hours with no reply back.
Annoyed.

how I ended up in Chicago one night

So this is a much overdue post of how I ended up in Chicago on the first Saturday in August
It was a long holiday weekend here in Canada.
I knew we (MrDentalSurgeon and I had plans for Saturday night I just didn't know what).
So in my impatience (because we all know I thrive under a plan)...I texted him at 2pm asking if we were still on for that night.

He called me and said, "so umm how about we fly to Chicago for the night, can you be ready in an hour?"
I was nervous but ummm hello Chicago!
So I quickly packed and got ready to travel with him.

1. I totally love traveling with a man.
I think it is so super romantic.
2. I usually dress up to travel because it's fun (and also only when it is a fairly short flight).

Before I knew it we were at the airport going through security.
He arranged for us to stay one of the W's in Chicago because he remembered the W is my favourite!
And as we drove in I was so super excited.

Pic from here.

When we checked in we asked if a city view was possible (who wants a lake view anyway haha?)
Which upgraded us to an awesome room!
I wish I had taken pics...instead I snagged some off their website for you.

We stayed at their city centre one.  Pic from here.

Pic from W hotel site...this totally screams Hello Teagan welcome to Chicago!

Check in area...LOVE

Loved this lobby.

Romantic little nooks!

Loved the dark chairs.

Our room looked like this...I enjoyed the quote thoroughly.

That awkward moment when you agree to one king sized bed.

I seriously LOVE the W hotels.
I ALWAYS have an incredible time.
I can now add Chicago to that fab list that includes...New York, Seoul (Korea), Barcelona (Spain), Chicago...believe it or not I have not actually stayed at the W in Dallas yet!

So the concierge was fabulous as per usual and got us reservations at a steakplace Chicago is known for and a cool new bar that was in the style of a speakeasy.
So we quickly changed.

First we headed to Harry Caray's.
Boasting Chicago's greatest steak.

Pic from here.

We were WAY overdressed.
It was more of a family place with one too many teens in short shorts pouting over their cellphones at dinner.
Here's the entrance into the dining area we ate in.

Pic from here.

At least they had tablecloths and linens (and not butcher paper and crayons if you catch my drift).
I know I know I can be such a snob sometimes!

Pic from here.

Dinner was good.
MrDentalSurgeon had to excuse himself twice during dinner for long periods because he was having some reflux issues.
Which left me often dining alone.
It's likely because he wolfs down his food barely breathing but anyhow.

After a late dinner we headed to Untitled at about 11pm.
Modeled after a speakeasy.
Thank goodness our concierge had gotten us on the list because there was already a massive line.
Oh yea I forgot to mention Lollapollooza(spelling?) was happening at this time...so the fact that we scored an awesome hotel and reservations anywhere in the city was a miracle in itself (we simply had no idea this was going on until the lady at the concierge desk told us-she could have got us tickets but thank goodness MrDentalSurgeon isn't into things like that-I'm so not an outdoor many hours play in the mud concert kind of gal).

Couldn't tell much from the outside.
But once inside I fell in love with it...

Pics all from official website.

So we settled into the cutest little table beside the stage.
You can see it at the top left of the next pic.


And listened to the amazing band.

This wasn't the exact band...but I can't find pics of the one we listed to.  Which was a female singer, and four guys with different instruments included the ones above!

So we indulged in many cocktails.
I had KirRoyale's (a few too many).
And as we closed out the bar and stumbled into a cab I was having an amazing night.
Until we got up to our hotel room which started to spin.
And before I knew it I was on my hands and knees in front of the toilet.
Not how to make a good impression.at.all.

I was so super humiliated.
In the wee hours of the morning...we made out a lot but didn't take it that far.
I'm impressed he made out with me after hearing me hurl for a few hours before.

Then we got up to go explore the city.
And as I got ready.
I thought I was going to die.
It was different than being hungover though.
It was almost food poisoning esque.
MrDentalSurgeon looked at me and said, "you do not look good".
So instead of exploring Chicago and having fun.
I ended up having to lay in bed until 2pm.
And I was so upset and humiliated.
But I literally could not move or eat or anything.
MrDentalSurgeon went to go grab lunch and brought me back Advil and a Vitamin Water.
And before I knew it we were headed back to Toronto.
At least I didn't puke on the plane.
But Sunday night I had a birthday party of one of the CanadaCrew to go to and I didn't make it because I was still feeling awful.

So that my friends is how you turn an amazing trip to Chicago into a horrible embarrasing mess.
Maybe that's why MrDentalSurgeon is not really that interested...

Unreplied

Pic from here

So yesterday at 4:50 this text from MrDentalSurgeon...

Hola Teagan!  Hope your having a good week, 
I've been sick as hell all week :s, 
finally feeling a bit better today - 
sinuses still super clogged but fever/chills etc. gone.

So ummm yea how do I reply to this?
I mean I know he is a crappy communicator but a ton of things about Saturday night I was unhappy with.
I know he was/is likely very sick (because that would explain why I'm currently super sick).
BUT not hearing from him since Sunday?!  I can't help but think of super sick MrKent who still managed to hang out with me (I mean how much energy does it actually take to text someone...its the whole if he cares he communicates thing...well then I can't really put that comparison to MrKent because he did end up breaking things off though when he was sick and still super communicative).

I'm clearly not super impressed.
But you know me I will probably come up with a super cheerful response back about how he got be sick.
Because you know...I'm a people pleaser like that.
I don't know...what do y'all think I should do?

the 26 minute date

So I'm going to try and stay at least on top of things in recent occurance realizing I still owe you a few updates.
Oh and in case you're wondering...I did message MrDentalSurgeon on Sunday evening inviting him over for "hangover pizza and a movie" to which he replied, "would be nice :). but I'm going to sleep soon -feel like crappola :(" 
And then I haven't heard from him since.
So yea anyway...

Last night I had my third date with MrPravda.
He picked me up looking super stylish in a lilac linen dress shirt and pants.
He was telling me about his new additional job as we drove downtown.

As we were driving his friend called.
And he told me this is one of his super close friends.
He said it might sound silly but they made sure to talk at least weekly.
It made me think of my close friendship with Taylor.

As we were parking his friend called again.
He asked if I minded if he answered since it was strange to do the two phone call thing.
I nodded and said "of course".

I could hear his guy friend sobbing.
It totally unnerves me when a guy cries.
Something was wrong.
I mouthed to MrPravda "we should go".

The boys discussed getting together in a few hours.
Turns out his friend is going through a divorce.
And his wife officially left him.
His family was with him but clearly he needed his friend.

So I offered to take a cab home.
MrPravda thought we could still grab dinner because he had his family with him and insisted that he was good right then and would see him in a few hours.
So knowing it would just be a quick dinner we headed in to Il Mulino

Pic from their website.

Super cute right.
And reminded me of the places I love in Toronto.
Small hidden jems.
Cozy and romantic.
Way more my style of restaurant than let's say...TheKeg.




I ordered the 
Spaghettini Bolognese Our Signature Homemade Meat Sauce

He ordered the
Agnello del Fornaio 42.95
Herb Crusted Rack of Lamb in a Pommery Mustard Sauce 

And as we had our first drink...
his friend called again.
Clearly distraught.
So we asked that they bring our bill and if our food was ready to put it in to go containers.

He drove me home.
We had actually really interesting talks on the drive home.
He told me about an engagement that was called off.

As he came up to my exit off the highway he asked...
what about you? what about your last serious relationship.
And I froze.

But then I said...well to be honest not something that can be covered in a 2 minute drive.
I sort of shrugged and said...you know to be honest...things don't end unless they end badly.
He nodded in agreement....guess my story will have to wait until another time.

I was so deep in thought when I left the car.
He told me "I have to see you before you leave for Dallas".
I said "I'll try"...because I'm super busy...and I may have strep throat (started as a tickle in my throat yesterday but woke me up last night and is killing me right now)...I better NOT be sick for Dallas.

So as I walked across my lobby MrPravda called.
He was like I'm so sorry but could you take the food I don't want my friend to feel bad.
I said "of course...and I should probably eat dinner anyway".

And as he met me in front of my building he pulled me in for a good kiss.
And by 8:22pm I sat down to two dinners.

I'm back!!

It's amazing what over a week without internet does.
Mostly it just makes you very very annoyed.
ANYwho I have so much to catch y'all up on!

So let's get started!!!  
In a completely random way...

The first thing I want to tell you about was last night (Saturday).
There is a lyric in a song that I think spells it out PERFECTLY...
I knew we wasn't compatible
Quarterback my feelings to the side, that's a lateral
That totally sums up how I feel...

I spent the good part of Saturday afternoon getting ready for a date with MrDentalSurgeon.
Dressed up in a pretty dress.
He wanted me to join his friends at that club Muziq.

I tried to get out of it a bunch because his two close friends were going and it made me feel like I was kind of crashing a boys night.
I even told him to ask his best friend (the friend that I met on this date).
He insisted like when he sent the text saying "spoke to my friend its 100% NO ISSUE for you to come out tomorrow :Dx 100"

So he picked me up at 9 and we went to pick up one of the other guys.
Then we tried to decide what to eat before going out drinking.
Which had me annoyed for a couple of reasons.
1. It was late and I was hungry.
2. He didn't plan anything ahead/have reservations.
And the fact that sitting down for dinner at 10 limits a lot of your options here in Toronto (at least at nicer places).

But of course I slap a smile on my face and say it's no big deal.
So the three of us go the Keg 
(you obviously know my opinions about this from our first date).
So we had dinner and it was SO weird.
MrDentalSurgeon was pretty much quiet and ignoring me.

AND I was trying not to sit and chat too much to his friend.
You know so that he wouldn't get jealous.
It was totally bumming me out.
And the fact that his friend was the one to compliment my dress rather than MrDentalSurgeon himself bothered me.

Then we picked up his other friend and the four of us headed to Musiq.
(The place we went to on this date).
Where we joined the party we were attending.
Picture some cabana booths with about 50 people.

Pic from here.

It was a bunch of guys that are super successful in Toronto.
ie. tons of money and not afraid to flash that around.
ie. a group JUST like my work colleagues from way back now.
ie. me = uncomfortable.

And MrDentalSurgeon just seemed like he was in a bad mood.
I felt like he was sort of ignoring me.
So what to do...have some drinks...including ridiculous $1000/bottle of Cristal...
I'm pretty sure that is the first time I've ever had Crystal.

So we stayed there until about 3/3:30.
Before we had to walk out to find a cab.
The four of us chatting and giggling and drunk.
It was so cold and MrDentalSurgeon did not take the opportunity to put an arm around me etc.

I remember dropping my purse and one of his friends crouching down to help me instead of MrDentalSurgon.
We headed back to his place just us two.
Where I made poor decisions.
And now feel kind of awful about it.

It was followed up by him driving me home at 5am.
(Because I wanted to avoid a walk of shame in a cocktail dress during daylight hours).
I texted him... "Thank you for a fun night...I wanted to invite you up but you seemed really kinda mad"
(Wow talk about me not being confrontational but trying to figure out how he was feeling).
He replied "had fun as well, just got back to garage.  Not mad- super tired and throat sore :s. Night:)"
And since then I haven't heard a word from him.
Not so awesome.
I'm just trying to pretend I'm not so annoyed about it.

I don't know what I was thinking last night.

A date with B

So on Tuesday I had a date with B.
He is a friend.
Remember the awkwardness of this night...and then my second thoughts months later here and here.


Well he asked me out for a date.
And since he had heard of all my sort of not so great dating stories I figured I certainly should give him a chance.
He suggested Terroni on Adelaide.


I didn't have the heart to suggest somewhere else though I had been there recently with MrConsultant (a different location/same menu) and previously before with MrKent.
I messaged him during the day to ask him if we were meeting at the restaurant or before hand (ie. what I was trying to say is "hey if this is a date...pick me up!")
He said "meet there...is that okay?"
So obviously I replied "sounds great :)" because I suck at saying how I really feel.


I was so so so incredibly nervous!
I was just a chatty cathy talking a million miles a minute.
He is pretty chatty too so that was okay.
We had some great food.
But I couldn't help but glance around and hope not to see MrKent or recall that date.
Anyway I quickly zoned myself back into conversation with B.


Afterwards he walked me to my car that was parked close to my work.
And as we stood there chatting.
I was nervous...and found myself saying "I had a really great time hanging out"...I mean I did but something about it seemed so automatic like it is my go to line after a date.
It's like I don't want to make the person feel bad.


And then I was panicky as I went to hug him but he was sort of leaning down.
And I thought well I can't kiss him.
So before I knew it he kissed me and then  I kept kissing him because I was so worried about it being awkward!
And it was fine.
I mean it was good.


And as I drove home I had a little bit of a freak out.
As in what the HECK am I doing?
Am I dating too much? Am I still not over MrKent? Should I take a break from all this dating? Should I move out of the country? 
Total freakout.
So obviously when I got home I reached out to Taylor.
Who instantly made me feel better by telling me "you're not doing anything wrong".
And it made me breathe a little bit easier.


Then Laurel messaged me ...here is how it went down.

Pravda= MrPravda, Dentist=MrDentalSurgeon, Ottawa guy=MrConsultant...just to help you keep it straight:)

The blank is MrKent

So yea safe to say I was having a little bit of a freak out!


Thank goodness B is going to Vegas/Cali on vacation so I can have some time to sort out what to do about him/this situation.
Part of me thinks I'm actually not ready for a boyfriend if that person isn't the right one.
But part of me thinks I'm so ready for a boyfriend if it is the right person.
I think I was/am bummed because I really thought MrKent was the right person.
Boy was I wrong.
What am I going to do?
Of course my ridiculousness had me lined up for a date the next night...Wednesday a date with MrPravda.