Longest week

So this week felt like forever.
Probably since coming off the high of Dallas trip and Michigan trip.
Stressed with work.
Over thinking my text messages etc with Will.
Trying to figure out about the dating situation over here.

Monday and Tuesday it was just about getting through the work day.
On Wednesday after more than a year of back and forth texting I finally met up with one of my friends from high school let's call him Mitchel.
So I suggested meeting at Fabbrica at the Shops at Don Mills 
(where I went with my parents a few weeks ago).

Had a great time and it was fun to see pictures of his little one and wife.
So that was a fun Wednesday night.
Thursday I was supposed to go out with MrPravda.
And this is how it went down.

So my deal (obviously is I detest when plans change and I like to know exactly what's going on...hence the 5:21pm confirmation by myself.
So I was quite perturbed to receive this information at 6:49pm.

So it was Thursday and I was exhausted.
And I wanted to give him an out...and then he seriously suggested I meet him at JackAstor's.
Y'all know how I feel about that...

So if he was just like my buddy and wanted to meet for a drink.
Not a problem.
The thing is I don't love that area around that mall.
It is generally fairly sketchy and just not where I like to hang out.

The other thing...it is supposed to be a date.
I wouldn't mind if it was like a friend and not a big deal but I don't know it's just I didn't have the motivation to get dolled up and drive my butt over there.

So I just couldn't handle it anymore and clearly didn't feel like going.
As soon as he texted me MrPravda gave me a call.
And we tried to reschedule something for this morning.

Friday night I had my friend Shelby in town for a baseball tournament.
She didn't get here until about 12:15am though.
And we stayed up chatting.

This morning MrPravda and I had more texting miscommunication and when he hadn't confirmed (again) with 25 minutes until we were supposed to hang out...I'm kind of irritated.
I also know that I'm probably just not that into him.
So I bailed on plans I'm supposed to text him later on today but I think I'm just going to chill out at my place.

I think I was a little cocky when I went away.
Wondering what texts I would have waiting for me when I got home.
And then not really having any.

Granted they soon did follow from MrPravda, B, and MrRealtor.
And I have not heard from MrDentalSurgeon since here.
Only I'm not sure what to do about any of them.
Taylor had the suggestion that I just scrap all of them and start fresh.
Also I'm just trying not to think about Will and what happened last weekend.

Tonight is Laurel's birthday party.
She's turning 29 and to pay tribute to her last birthday she is doing it up as keg frat party.
The theme...golf pros and tennis hoes.
It's going to be the best kind of trouble! 

Oh yea AND just to update y'all on my nails (from this crappy experience).
I took off the shellac polish Thursday night and yesterday I broke my thumb nail in like the weirdest way ever.
LOOK!

So I think that shellac manicure ruins your nails for sure.
Or at least the place where I went messed them up.
So I'm going to go back to chilling on my couch!

Dallas Trip~ Thursday (Day One)...The Arrival!

Working up to my trip things were crazy busy!
I felt like I almost wasn't going to make it to Dallas.
I worked an earlier shift so I could make it to the airport in time.

Leading up to it I was nervous and excited.
Coupled with my busy day of not eating at all...
I was a little awkward when MrPravda came to drop me off at the airport.
A lot awkward actually.

I think I was just so full of different emotions.
We had just come off of this date...and I still wasn't 100% feeling great by the time I was to take off.
He was perfectly sweet.
He even parked the car to help me in with my luggage.

And as I got to the ticket area he was like "this is you".
So I was like "ummm okay".
Though MrPravda did send me a cute text saying he was looking forward to a thicker southern accent when I got back to Canada.
Then I headed to customs.

They totally gave me a hard time because my hair is on the lighter side now versus my dark hair in my passport picture.
After I cleared that I found the only place in the terminal to eat that served warm food.
(Toronto airport kind of sucks actually with that kind of stuff).

I also may have had a cocktail while waiting for my food...heck it was the start of my vacation!

So I had a mediocre hamburger.
And got ready to head out.
One final picture outside the airplane window.

And it was goodbye to Toronto (at least for a little while).
And I got to enjoy SkyMall which is a guilty pleasure of mine.
And I may or may not have one of these wallet things on the cover.
(However I received it as a promo in a swag bag from a meeting last year I didn't buy it from Skymall...truth be told I've never purchased anything from SkyMall...yet).

From being sick and my sinus congestion the flight was so very painful to my head.
I was very happy to land.
And when I landed the feeling of pure bliss.
It felt already like coming home.

And then to have my gorgeous and (now pregnant) bestie pic me up outside!
I was so completely thrilled.
We headed to her BEAUTIFUL home that I got to see in real life 
(and not just during facetime chats).

I met her amazing sweet husband MrArchitect.
And then we stayed up gabbing.
It was so so hard to keep the secret I was keeping.

But I was easily distracted giving her some cute things I had purchased for her.
Like ...

Taylor has a pair of Uggs so I could not resist an itty bitty baby pair.

Seriously it was pink and had polka dots...could not resist!  And I LOVE little ones on white tights!

I loved the sweet details of the buttons.  The quality of Joe Fresh is incredible!

To me this seemed very Canadian...a really nice knit.  Though the buttons might be a bit of a pain.

I loved how these buttons were little hearts!

Before we knew it it was getting late and we had to get up early to head out the next day.
I went to sleep happy and excited and with a feeling of calm I haven't felt in a VERY long time.

A Monday Night Date

So I'm in Dallas having the TIME OF MY LIFE.
Well at least I know I will so I did a few of these posts to keep y'all entertained until I get back.
So this past Monday I had a low key date with MrPravda.

After our last date was cut short (read here if you missed it).
So I was feeling under the weather (STILL so annoying).
So he suggested takeout and a chilled night at home.
I thought why not (I'm also going to pretend that I was not thinking that the last person I had in the house was MrKent).

So we grabbed some Malaysian food from where else? Gourmet Malaysia.
And it was delish.
It cracks me up how sometimes how something looks may not be what you get.
Like I find it actually sort of turn off the way this place looks.

Pic from their website.

But the food was actually quite good.
I would totally get takeout from their again.
And it took awhile too so at least it was prepared fresh and not just warmed up.
We had satay, and asaam chicken, ocra and fried rice.

And we watched some TrueBlood 
(which I don't mind watching on my own BUT 
what a weird show to try to watch on a date while eating dinner).
Anywho then after we sat and chatted and talked about music etc.

I was still a coughing sort of sick mess.
And he kept trying to kiss me.
And I of course kept apologizing because I really just didn't feel great.
It wasn't him I just didn't want to make out and then stop to have a coughing spell.

But the funny thing was it was like I just wanted to keep chatting his ear off.
And he just kept wanting to makeout.
So it was like a cat and mouse game.
Only I wasn't trying to be hard to get...I'm just still sick (and therefore don't feel cute).
Which is weird because this is my own self getting in my own way!

And y'all I just don't know.
Probably didn't help that I wasn't feeling great.
One thing that I do think.
I think my girlfriends would like him.
Like I think he is a nice guy and would get a stamp of approval from them.
MrDentalSurgeon on the other hand would not get a pass.
Just because of how he is in person...which sounds terrible.

Hmm perhaps tomorrows post will involve the texts that I got from him last Sunday...
We'll see.

So that is how I had a decent if slightly awkward date with MrPravda last Monday.
Who may or may not be taking me to and from the airport to Dallas...
I haven't decided yet...but I will keep you posted.
As always.




PS Does anyone else think I'm kind of nutso for still thinking about MrKent...WTF is my problem?
Have never heard a peep from him since he walked out the door that last time.

the 26 minute date

So I'm going to try and stay at least on top of things in recent occurance realizing I still owe you a few updates.
Oh and in case you're wondering...I did message MrDentalSurgeon on Sunday evening inviting him over for "hangover pizza and a movie" to which he replied, "would be nice :). but I'm going to sleep soon -feel like crappola :(" 
And then I haven't heard from him since.
So yea anyway...

Last night I had my third date with MrPravda.
He picked me up looking super stylish in a lilac linen dress shirt and pants.
He was telling me about his new additional job as we drove downtown.

As we were driving his friend called.
And he told me this is one of his super close friends.
He said it might sound silly but they made sure to talk at least weekly.
It made me think of my close friendship with Taylor.

As we were parking his friend called again.
He asked if I minded if he answered since it was strange to do the two phone call thing.
I nodded and said "of course".

I could hear his guy friend sobbing.
It totally unnerves me when a guy cries.
Something was wrong.
I mouthed to MrPravda "we should go".

The boys discussed getting together in a few hours.
Turns out his friend is going through a divorce.
And his wife officially left him.
His family was with him but clearly he needed his friend.

So I offered to take a cab home.
MrPravda thought we could still grab dinner because he had his family with him and insisted that he was good right then and would see him in a few hours.
So knowing it would just be a quick dinner we headed in to Il Mulino

Pic from their website.

Super cute right.
And reminded me of the places I love in Toronto.
Small hidden jems.
Cozy and romantic.
Way more my style of restaurant than let's say...TheKeg.




I ordered the 
Spaghettini Bolognese Our Signature Homemade Meat Sauce

He ordered the
Agnello del Fornaio 42.95
Herb Crusted Rack of Lamb in a Pommery Mustard Sauce 

And as we had our first drink...
his friend called again.
Clearly distraught.
So we asked that they bring our bill and if our food was ready to put it in to go containers.

He drove me home.
We had actually really interesting talks on the drive home.
He told me about an engagement that was called off.

As he came up to my exit off the highway he asked...
what about you? what about your last serious relationship.
And I froze.

But then I said...well to be honest not something that can be covered in a 2 minute drive.
I sort of shrugged and said...you know to be honest...things don't end unless they end badly.
He nodded in agreement....guess my story will have to wait until another time.

I was so deep in thought when I left the car.
He told me "I have to see you before you leave for Dallas".
I said "I'll try"...because I'm super busy...and I may have strep throat (started as a tickle in my throat yesterday but woke me up last night and is killing me right now)...I better NOT be sick for Dallas.

So as I walked across my lobby MrPravda called.
He was like I'm so sorry but could you take the food I don't want my friend to feel bad.
I said "of course...and I should probably eat dinner anyway".

And as he met me in front of my building he pulled me in for a good kiss.
And by 8:22pm I sat down to two dinners.

Another Date to add to the pile of confusion

I had made plans to hang out with MrPravda last week.
He came to pick me up.
And he didn't really have a plan.
So being that we were close to my area ie. NOT downtown :(


He suggested Milestones.
Sigh.
I know I know I'm becoming a total snob but I just don't love these chain places.
And YES it would be the same Milestones from this date.
Like I need to think about MrKent at all ugh!


Afterwards he suggested a movie.
We had to kill some time so we headed to a patio for a drink before hand.
Where we basically chatted and left me wondering hmmm I'm not sure about this one.
Part of me was ready for this to be our last date.
Part of me slightly intrigued.


We went to watch the new Batman movie.
I really enjoyed it.
And just because he took the opportunity to kiss me a few times throughout the movie.
He's a pretty darn good kisser.

I just don't know because I'm clearly a bundle of confusion at this point.
So I guess we'll see what happens with MrPravda.
Are ya'll getting bored of my dates yet... admittedly I kind of am sometimes.

This is random and doesn't really go with this post...but I thought...hmm why the heck not?  I would love to have this kind of chemistry and story for y'all haha.  Pic from here.

A date with B

So on Tuesday I had a date with B.
He is a friend.
Remember the awkwardness of this night...and then my second thoughts months later here and here.


Well he asked me out for a date.
And since he had heard of all my sort of not so great dating stories I figured I certainly should give him a chance.
He suggested Terroni on Adelaide.


I didn't have the heart to suggest somewhere else though I had been there recently with MrConsultant (a different location/same menu) and previously before with MrKent.
I messaged him during the day to ask him if we were meeting at the restaurant or before hand (ie. what I was trying to say is "hey if this is a date...pick me up!")
He said "meet there...is that okay?"
So obviously I replied "sounds great :)" because I suck at saying how I really feel.


I was so so so incredibly nervous!
I was just a chatty cathy talking a million miles a minute.
He is pretty chatty too so that was okay.
We had some great food.
But I couldn't help but glance around and hope not to see MrKent or recall that date.
Anyway I quickly zoned myself back into conversation with B.


Afterwards he walked me to my car that was parked close to my work.
And as we stood there chatting.
I was nervous...and found myself saying "I had a really great time hanging out"...I mean I did but something about it seemed so automatic like it is my go to line after a date.
It's like I don't want to make the person feel bad.


And then I was panicky as I went to hug him but he was sort of leaning down.
And I thought well I can't kiss him.
So before I knew it he kissed me and then  I kept kissing him because I was so worried about it being awkward!
And it was fine.
I mean it was good.


And as I drove home I had a little bit of a freak out.
As in what the HECK am I doing?
Am I dating too much? Am I still not over MrKent? Should I take a break from all this dating? Should I move out of the country? 
Total freakout.
So obviously when I got home I reached out to Taylor.
Who instantly made me feel better by telling me "you're not doing anything wrong".
And it made me breathe a little bit easier.


Then Laurel messaged me ...here is how it went down.

Pravda= MrPravda, Dentist=MrDentalSurgeon, Ottawa guy=MrConsultant...just to help you keep it straight:)

The blank is MrKent

So yea safe to say I was having a little bit of a freak out!


Thank goodness B is going to Vegas/Cali on vacation so I can have some time to sort out what to do about him/this situation.
Part of me thinks I'm actually not ready for a boyfriend if that person isn't the right one.
But part of me thinks I'm so ready for a boyfriend if it is the right person.
I think I was/am bummed because I really thought MrKent was the right person.
Boy was I wrong.
What am I going to do?
Of course my ridiculousness had me lined up for a date the next night...Wednesday a date with MrPravda.

Thursday Night Pseudo Deja Vu

Thursday night brought about a first date with a guy I met Saturday night out.
Who I could barely understand over the loud loud music.
Who I was excited to see.


He picked me up from close to my work location.
And I instantly felt like it was a much CALMER start to the date than the one on Wednesday.
In all seriousness I am valuing more and more being able to relax and feel like a woman.
You know to be taken out.
I get it and please don't hate me or think that I'm incapable of a decision or anti-feminist.
It's just nice to feel like a lady...or rather this is what relaxes me.


He was all dapper and suggested Italian.
Even though I had it the night before I was excited.
Then he pulled up to Gusto101.
Seriously.


Only he ALSO did not make reservations (seriously PEOPLE!  Make a darn reservation already!) and we were tight on time because I had an appointment to pick up so dresses I was having altered.
So instead we headed to KiWe Kitchen.
(It is on KIng WEst hence KiWe).

Pic from their website.

We decided to sit on the patio and soon settled into some conversation.

From their website.

And picked out things from the menu we started with the 
Burrata cheese, grape tomato, arugula, olive oil & crostini
It was only soso.


For the mains he ordered Seared Wellington County strip loin, seasoned fries, veal sauce
I ordered the Spaghettini, white shrimp, Orwell Cove mussels, fresh herbs and white wine sauce
Only when the food arrived...I was brought the Spaghetti, tomato sauce, basil, Reggiano
I hate to be high maintenance so I didn't say anything.

MrPravda noticed.
He asked if I wanted to send it back.
I said it was okay (and also we were tight for time).
Even though I know I ordered something different.
MrPravda asked me multiple times but I didn't want to be a bother.


The food was okay.
Nothing really special to be honest.
Before I knew it we had to go.
And as he pulled up to drop me off he asked if I needed to be walked to my car.
I said no (though I really would have preferred if he did).


What is UP with me lately not saying what I should?!?!
Annoying.
Anywho I went to hug him and he pulled me in for a kiss.
It was nice.
It really was too short of a time hanging out to know if there is anything there.
Perhaps more of a spark than with MrConsultant.


But I'm thinking way too much about everything.
Like should I be waiting for a relationship to grow slowly.
Or does there need to be that intangible something.
The thing that makes me fall too hard and much too fast.
Or is that just a huge mistake waiting to happen?
I just don't know.
I just know that I'm kind of getting frustrated...and sometimes bored of all this dating.
Maybe I'm just a little tired is all.