So sick

My nose looks like this.  Pic from here.

Meh I feel terrible.
I'm supposed to be a fun rooftop patio event with the Canada Crew.
Instead I'm sitting here on the couch tissue in hand, sucking on a TERRIBLE cough drop (seriously wishing there was ColdEeze Cherry ones in Canada (there aren't!) and waiting for these antibiotics to kick in.

I feel miserable.
And am hoping that my proactive start with the antibiotics will help me kick this thing by next week.
The thought of flying right now with my congested head gives me shivers.

The worst thing about being sick when you're single?
No one to bring you things.
So I'm a sulky pouty sick mess over here.

Had to cancel my date on Tuesay with MrRealtor.
And I haven't heard from MrDentalSurgeon since Sunday (safe to say I probably won't hear from him again...which I'm neither here nor there about so I guess that says a lot too).
1 week until Dallas.
Can.not.wait. (as long as I'm less sick).
It may or may not have to do that I've been running myself a little ragged.

the 26 minute date

So I'm going to try and stay at least on top of things in recent occurance realizing I still owe you a few updates.
Oh and in case you're wondering...I did message MrDentalSurgeon on Sunday evening inviting him over for "hangover pizza and a movie" to which he replied, "would be nice :). but I'm going to sleep soon -feel like crappola :(" 
And then I haven't heard from him since.
So yea anyway...

Last night I had my third date with MrPravda.
He picked me up looking super stylish in a lilac linen dress shirt and pants.
He was telling me about his new additional job as we drove downtown.

As we were driving his friend called.
And he told me this is one of his super close friends.
He said it might sound silly but they made sure to talk at least weekly.
It made me think of my close friendship with Taylor.

As we were parking his friend called again.
He asked if I minded if he answered since it was strange to do the two phone call thing.
I nodded and said "of course".

I could hear his guy friend sobbing.
It totally unnerves me when a guy cries.
Something was wrong.
I mouthed to MrPravda "we should go".

The boys discussed getting together in a few hours.
Turns out his friend is going through a divorce.
And his wife officially left him.
His family was with him but clearly he needed his friend.

So I offered to take a cab home.
MrPravda thought we could still grab dinner because he had his family with him and insisted that he was good right then and would see him in a few hours.
So knowing it would just be a quick dinner we headed in to Il Mulino

Pic from their website.

Super cute right.
And reminded me of the places I love in Toronto.
Small hidden jems.
Cozy and romantic.
Way more my style of restaurant than let's say...TheKeg.




I ordered the 
Spaghettini Bolognese Our Signature Homemade Meat Sauce

He ordered the
Agnello del Fornaio 42.95
Herb Crusted Rack of Lamb in a Pommery Mustard Sauce 

And as we had our first drink...
his friend called again.
Clearly distraught.
So we asked that they bring our bill and if our food was ready to put it in to go containers.

He drove me home.
We had actually really interesting talks on the drive home.
He told me about an engagement that was called off.

As he came up to my exit off the highway he asked...
what about you? what about your last serious relationship.
And I froze.

But then I said...well to be honest not something that can be covered in a 2 minute drive.
I sort of shrugged and said...you know to be honest...things don't end unless they end badly.
He nodded in agreement....guess my story will have to wait until another time.

I was so deep in thought when I left the car.
He told me "I have to see you before you leave for Dallas".
I said "I'll try"...because I'm super busy...and I may have strep throat (started as a tickle in my throat yesterday but woke me up last night and is killing me right now)...I better NOT be sick for Dallas.

So as I walked across my lobby MrPravda called.
He was like I'm so sorry but could you take the food I don't want my friend to feel bad.
I said "of course...and I should probably eat dinner anyway".

And as he met me in front of my building he pulled me in for a good kiss.
And by 8:22pm I sat down to two dinners.

I'm back!!

It's amazing what over a week without internet does.
Mostly it just makes you very very annoyed.
ANYwho I have so much to catch y'all up on!

So let's get started!!!  
In a completely random way...

The first thing I want to tell you about was last night (Saturday).
There is a lyric in a song that I think spells it out PERFECTLY...
I knew we wasn't compatible
Quarterback my feelings to the side, that's a lateral
That totally sums up how I feel...

I spent the good part of Saturday afternoon getting ready for a date with MrDentalSurgeon.
Dressed up in a pretty dress.
He wanted me to join his friends at that club Muziq.

I tried to get out of it a bunch because his two close friends were going and it made me feel like I was kind of crashing a boys night.
I even told him to ask his best friend (the friend that I met on this date).
He insisted like when he sent the text saying "spoke to my friend its 100% NO ISSUE for you to come out tomorrow :Dx 100"

So he picked me up at 9 and we went to pick up one of the other guys.
Then we tried to decide what to eat before going out drinking.
Which had me annoyed for a couple of reasons.
1. It was late and I was hungry.
2. He didn't plan anything ahead/have reservations.
And the fact that sitting down for dinner at 10 limits a lot of your options here in Toronto (at least at nicer places).

But of course I slap a smile on my face and say it's no big deal.
So the three of us go the Keg 
(you obviously know my opinions about this from our first date).
So we had dinner and it was SO weird.
MrDentalSurgeon was pretty much quiet and ignoring me.

AND I was trying not to sit and chat too much to his friend.
You know so that he wouldn't get jealous.
It was totally bumming me out.
And the fact that his friend was the one to compliment my dress rather than MrDentalSurgeon himself bothered me.

Then we picked up his other friend and the four of us headed to Musiq.
(The place we went to on this date).
Where we joined the party we were attending.
Picture some cabana booths with about 50 people.

Pic from here.

It was a bunch of guys that are super successful in Toronto.
ie. tons of money and not afraid to flash that around.
ie. a group JUST like my work colleagues from way back now.
ie. me = uncomfortable.

And MrDentalSurgeon just seemed like he was in a bad mood.
I felt like he was sort of ignoring me.
So what to do...have some drinks...including ridiculous $1000/bottle of Cristal...
I'm pretty sure that is the first time I've ever had Crystal.

So we stayed there until about 3/3:30.
Before we had to walk out to find a cab.
The four of us chatting and giggling and drunk.
It was so cold and MrDentalSurgeon did not take the opportunity to put an arm around me etc.

I remember dropping my purse and one of his friends crouching down to help me instead of MrDentalSurgon.
We headed back to his place just us two.
Where I made poor decisions.
And now feel kind of awful about it.

It was followed up by him driving me home at 5am.
(Because I wanted to avoid a walk of shame in a cocktail dress during daylight hours).
I texted him... "Thank you for a fun night...I wanted to invite you up but you seemed really kinda mad"
(Wow talk about me not being confrontational but trying to figure out how he was feeling).
He replied "had fun as well, just got back to garage.  Not mad- super tired and throat sore :s. Night:)"
And since then I haven't heard a word from him.
Not so awesome.
I'm just trying to pretend I'm not so annoyed about it.

I don't know what I was thinking last night.

Internet down since Thursday.
Hoping it will back up by Tuesday...grrr.

teasing because I owe y'all some posts

Pic from here.

I owe y'all some posts...like at least 5.
And I'm just going to be a tease about it

Like Thursday night a delish new discovery in Toronto with Val
Friday's relaxing night watching a movie
Saturday night when I ended up in Chicago with a certain Mr
Sunday wreckage day
Monday (a holiday here in Canada) celebrated with a jaunt on Lake Ontario and ditching another date with another Mr

To be continued!

Another Date to add to the pile of confusion

I had made plans to hang out with MrPravda last week.
He came to pick me up.
And he didn't really have a plan.
So being that we were close to my area ie. NOT downtown :(


He suggested Milestones.
Sigh.
I know I know I'm becoming a total snob but I just don't love these chain places.
And YES it would be the same Milestones from this date.
Like I need to think about MrKent at all ugh!


Afterwards he suggested a movie.
We had to kill some time so we headed to a patio for a drink before hand.
Where we basically chatted and left me wondering hmmm I'm not sure about this one.
Part of me was ready for this to be our last date.
Part of me slightly intrigued.


We went to watch the new Batman movie.
I really enjoyed it.
And just because he took the opportunity to kiss me a few times throughout the movie.
He's a pretty darn good kisser.

I just don't know because I'm clearly a bundle of confusion at this point.
So I guess we'll see what happens with MrPravda.
Are ya'll getting bored of my dates yet... admittedly I kind of am sometimes.

This is random and doesn't really go with this post...but I thought...hmm why the heck not?  I would love to have this kind of chemistry and story for y'all haha.  Pic from here.

A date with B

So on Tuesday I had a date with B.
He is a friend.
Remember the awkwardness of this night...and then my second thoughts months later here and here.


Well he asked me out for a date.
And since he had heard of all my sort of not so great dating stories I figured I certainly should give him a chance.
He suggested Terroni on Adelaide.


I didn't have the heart to suggest somewhere else though I had been there recently with MrConsultant (a different location/same menu) and previously before with MrKent.
I messaged him during the day to ask him if we were meeting at the restaurant or before hand (ie. what I was trying to say is "hey if this is a date...pick me up!")
He said "meet there...is that okay?"
So obviously I replied "sounds great :)" because I suck at saying how I really feel.


I was so so so incredibly nervous!
I was just a chatty cathy talking a million miles a minute.
He is pretty chatty too so that was okay.
We had some great food.
But I couldn't help but glance around and hope not to see MrKent or recall that date.
Anyway I quickly zoned myself back into conversation with B.


Afterwards he walked me to my car that was parked close to my work.
And as we stood there chatting.
I was nervous...and found myself saying "I had a really great time hanging out"...I mean I did but something about it seemed so automatic like it is my go to line after a date.
It's like I don't want to make the person feel bad.


And then I was panicky as I went to hug him but he was sort of leaning down.
And I thought well I can't kiss him.
So before I knew it he kissed me and then  I kept kissing him because I was so worried about it being awkward!
And it was fine.
I mean it was good.


And as I drove home I had a little bit of a freak out.
As in what the HECK am I doing?
Am I dating too much? Am I still not over MrKent? Should I take a break from all this dating? Should I move out of the country? 
Total freakout.
So obviously when I got home I reached out to Taylor.
Who instantly made me feel better by telling me "you're not doing anything wrong".
And it made me breathe a little bit easier.


Then Laurel messaged me ...here is how it went down.

Pravda= MrPravda, Dentist=MrDentalSurgeon, Ottawa guy=MrConsultant...just to help you keep it straight:)

The blank is MrKent

So yea safe to say I was having a little bit of a freak out!


Thank goodness B is going to Vegas/Cali on vacation so I can have some time to sort out what to do about him/this situation.
Part of me thinks I'm actually not ready for a boyfriend if that person isn't the right one.
But part of me thinks I'm so ready for a boyfriend if it is the right person.
I think I was/am bummed because I really thought MrKent was the right person.
Boy was I wrong.
What am I going to do?
Of course my ridiculousness had me lined up for a date the next night...Wednesday a date with MrPravda.