Crossroads...not just a Britney Spears movie title...

I'm having a bit of a freak out...panic attack...reached crossroads in my life
and it's kind of like "now what????".
Before I was waiting to see if I passed my tests and now I did.
I can work in my career in Canada.

Now I'm stuck.
Well I guess I mean that in two senses of the word "stuck".
I'm "stuck" here in Canada (insert sad face) almost feels like a jail sentance (okay I know I'm being a TAD melodramatic).
I'm "stuck" in the sense like my feet are glued to the ground and I can't quite seem to make that next step...ie. look for jobs that I would actually consider.

You would think I would have spent these last weeks revamping my CV/resume and being ready to go out the gate and I just didn't.
I guess my main problem is how to gloss over the fact that I haven't worked since May 2010 in my field.
Ummm I'm guessing most employers will not be super impressed by me cutting short a contract in Asia to follow my fiance/pseudo-husband back to this hemisphere of the world.
I never anticipated it would be THIS long before I would be able to work again.
I was already licensed in the USA so we thought it would only take a few weeks but with the immigration issues it ended up being much longer and well now of course it has turned out like this.

I'm humiliated and embarrased.
Also cut to the fact that I don't have a letter of recommendation from my last two employers.
I did ask and they said they would do one but I guess I didn't pester enough to actually get them.

So I just feel stuck.
Then add to the mix that I'm just NOT excited to work here and that is sucking big time.
So then I start to look internationally...which will lead to all kind of death threats from the family and friends (I'm kidding...sort of).

So what do I do???
I feel like I'm standing at a fork in the road
and have absolutely no idea which direction to step in.
Well there is one road I want but it is not available to me.

I guess the first step is to organize my "bags" (resume/CV).
Grab a map and try to decipher what the available "roads" (places) for me are.
Just try to travel a road...and see how quickly a roadblock pops up.
Because YES I am anticipating some roadblocks.

If there were directions signs I feel like they would read like this...not entirely encouraging.

pics from here, here,

Femme Fatale

So I'm so so exited for Britney's new CD.
I love her music so much.
And YES I love that it is totally produced and put together manufactured and super fun.

I wrote about how much I loved her performances here before.
Seeing her on GMA I felt bad how people were ripping her apart.
I thought she did well and improved with each song performance.

Then on Jimmy Kimmel I thought she was funny (it reminded me of skits she did on SNL before).

And I thought it was her best performance yet!

Go Britney I can't wait to get her album this weekend.



In case you missed when she was on SNL the first time...
Here is her opening monologue...

Here are her skits...my fav is the dance audition

Then in 2002...Love how Justin Timberlake showed up in her opening monologue!

And her SNL performances...

Britney vs Gaga

This was on pinkisthenewblog a while ago.
But I can't stop nearly peeing my pants with laughter everytime I watch this.
It isn't perfectly edited but I think it makes it even better.
I also totally appreciate the content which is funny and with tons of pop culture/gossip rumors etc.
So I thought I would share.
Enjoy.
Warning it is explicit so don't watch it at work or with the kids or anything like that.

I love Britney

So I have always loved Britney Spears.
Since the very beginning (I remember buying her first single) all the way until now.
I get she is produced etc but I love that.
When there was a poster sale for our dorms in undergrad everyone went for like funny ones or scenic ones or cute boys.  I totally had the Britney poster (that was totally intentioned for guys).
I have multiple DVDs and I'm still convinced that besides P!nk (whose talent I recognize is much much stronger) she is the best at putting on a show.
(Then again I haven't been to a concert and am basing it off of her MVA performances and the concert DVDs I own).
So I found a great mix of her VMA moments which are all epic (well except for her Gimme More performance which BROKE my heart).  I was so SO excited to hear she would possibly perform at the Grammy's but alas I don't think it will happen.